Embracing the Power of Yes: A Journey of Change and Growth

The concept of New Year's resolutions often comes to mind. Personally, I have never been a firm believer in setting resolutions, but I have come to realize that there are certain patterns in my life that I consistently strive to change. One such pattern is my desire to read more. Every year, I make a promise to myself that I will dedicate more time to reading, and yet, I often find myself falling short of this goal. It's a recurring cycle that I can't seem to break.

Perhaps it's my Virgo nature that contributes to this cycle. As a Virgo, I am known for my meticulous planning and attention to detail. I always get a planner and jot down all the things I intend to do. It's almost comical how I am constantly "Virgoing" – a term I use to describe my tendency to overanalyze and overthink things. While this trait can be useful in certain aspects of life, it often becomes a hindrance when it comes to creativity and spontaneity.

Being a creative person, I find it challenging to adhere to a strict schedule. It seems that whenever I have a deadline or a set routine, my creative juices come to a halt. It's as if the pressure of sticking to a schedule stifles my ability to think outside the box. I wonder if this is a common struggle among creative individuals or if it's just my Virgo nature at play. Regardless, it can be frustrating to experience a creative block when I have a desire to produce and share my work.

In addition to my creative struggles, I must admit that I am a naturally standoffish and shy person. I tend to prefer my own company and often feel awkward in social situations. I become like a shadow, observing from a distance. People often reach out to me, concerned about my well-being, but the truth is, I am content in my solitude. I find solace in watching others and being an observer rather than an active participant. However, this inclination towards isolation sometimes conflicts with my desire to be consistent in my creative endeavors.

I often find myself torn between wanting to maintain a consistent online presence and embracing my natural inclination towards solitude. It's a constant battle within myself. On one hand, I want to share my creative work and connect with others, but on the other hand, I feel the need to retreat and be alone. It's a struggle that I grapple with, and it often leaves me feeling conflicted and frustrated.

However, as life takes unexpected turns, I have come to realize that change is inevitable. Life, like a cancer, has shown me a different path, a different journey. It has forced me to embrace new experiences and let go of my old ways. This realization has led me to redefine my resolutions. Instead of focusing on specific goals, my resolution now is simply to change.

Change, for me, means embracing the power of yes. As an inherently awkward and uncomfortable person, I have always defaulted to saying no or sticking to what I am comfortable with. But now, I am determined to break free from this pattern. I want to challenge myself to say yes to new opportunities, to step out of my comfort zone, and to embrace the unknown.

The power of yes holds immense importance to me. It signifies a shift in mindset, a willingness to explore and grow. It means being open to new experiences, even if they make me uncomfortable. It means saying yes to social engagements, to collaborations, and to opportunities that may push me beyond my limits. It means being consistent in my creative pursuits, even when faced with deadlines and creative blocks.

This journey of change and growth has been ongoing, even before the new year began. The power of yes has been brewing within me, urging me to step outside of my comfort zone and embrace the unknown. It has been a transformative experience, one that has allowed me to discover new aspects of myself and to challenge the limitations I have placed upon myself.

In conclusion, while I may not fully believe in New Year's resolutions, I do believe in the power of change. As  I have always been inclined to plan and analyze, but I am learning to let go of my need for control and embrace the power of yes. This resolution, to say yes to new experiences and to step out of my comfort zone, holds great significance to me. It is a commitment to growth, creativity, and embracing the journey that life has laid out before me.